Sunday, December 10, 2006
Thursday, November 30, 2006
VINTAGE
I was going through my parent's stuff this morning, looking for things that i can use for my photography class homework - things like umbrellas, cardboards, blankets, spare light bulbs... anything at all. I ended up finding much more than what i was looking for: a Kodak Retina Reflex III and a Kodak Motormatic 35(c.1961). Yes, two vintage cameras. One belonged to my Dad, the other one was my Mom's.
I guess that's why no matter how much i tried to ignore the desire to pick up a camera and seriously shoot my life away - and i've been trying to ignore it for more than two decades now - it just wouldn't go away. I'm beginning to understand.
Monday, November 27, 2006
THE QUEEN
The red carpet of my blood unrolls
Bells in my head ring
and send my whole body
tingling shivering shaking
The drumbeat of my heart intensifies
And the strident sound of my inner trumpet
commands my usually listless soul
to stand at attention
Every time you, or thoughts of you,
come around.
You are my queen.
I live for you.
And if I must,
I shall die for you.
Saturday, November 25, 2006
GOOGLING FEELINGS
Once again, my feelings got me into trouble. So i thought, what the @#$!%, i will have to deal with this feelings thing once and for all. Where do i start? Google, of course:
“Feelings are not supposed to be logical. Dangerous is the man who has rationalized his emotions.” -David Borenstein
See? I was right all along. But it doesn't end there. I was right about this one, too:
“You cannot make yourself feel something you do not feel, but you can make yourself do right in spite of your feelings.” -Pearl S. Buck
Oh well, sometimes i feel it's just so pointless being right. Oops! There...see? I felt again. Darn.
Thursday, November 23, 2006
Friday, November 17, 2006
KAPE
It’s quite distressing how caffeine, that is supposed to just perk me up, overachieves its purpose and shoots me way past perkiness to a painfully throbbing state of catatonic panic, if there is such a thing.
Yes, there is such a thing.
My body moves around, desperately seeking life support for a mind and a soul that are almost dead.
Wednesday, November 15, 2006
ME, MORE OR LESS
i’m a leo, born in august. when asked, i always say i like the color blue. the truth is i like most colors i see.
i was born and raised in manila. i tried leaving so many times but i guess it’s true that home is where the heart is. my take on it, anyway. can’t live without a heart so i always find myself back home.
i was raised in a progressive catholic school run by belgian nuns. and then i was raised some more in a university run by jesuits. guess how i turned out.
i dabbled a bit in philosophy, a bit in literature, a bit in the social sciences. i tried teaching and enjoyed it for a few years, then got curious and joined the crazy world of advertising where i logically started out as a writer and ended up designing as well. i might come up with a profoundly inspiring reason for that when i write my life story. for now, i can only tell you the truth: i did it because i didn’t know what else to do. i sometimes find myself wishing i did myself and the world a favor and took up medicine or agriculture instead. but that’s just sometimes. i’m really okay.
i’m young. we all are. so let’s believe what george mallory, that great everest explorer, said: there is no dream that mustn’t be dared.
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